U didn't understand
How I m without u

I wish one day u will realise.

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High depression and hate from everyone first time I felt .
I m just doing
I m trying for everyone.

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I felt alive for some months
Felt I could do something

Now I became that disgusting creature again.

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From 3 bottles of water daily half of the water is used as the tears rolled down my cheeks.
Shit I made my pillow wet again nd again with my tears.
Thank god it is summer.
Let the tears get converted into sweat again.

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Death ? What is it?
It is what I m living now.

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I couldn't cry loud in pain in my bed
As I can't disturb anyone's dream

Went to the bathroom
And the running tap sound silenced my cry for everyone.

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I thought I deserve you
But I forgot that I don't deserve happiness.
I deserve only pain, taunt and neglection
And I know I m made for these only..

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Let me sacrifice my happiness for you
Just wish I may survive.

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The whole room seems noticable in the dim light but the beating red light in the electric board is the one who has taken my sight for most of the time.

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Tonight I felt I can see the darkness in the darkness without getting bored for hours.

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