Mind gives a great amount of resistance in accepting your heartfelt love.
Then creates another trap into depression blaming the other one for leaving you.
But when you understand coming back into your natural senses, you see you wanted to serve the one but couldn't because of your incapabilities.
He/she sensed it and chose another person instead of you.
Now you no longer remain responsible to serve her. But your mind doesn't let that accept gracefully. It creates as if she would be unhappy without you. Afterall mind never thinks itself as incompatible or incompetent.
But when you see it, just understand that the person you experienced love for, is happy without you, with her new found love. Although she might be struggling, you can only pray to God to bless her; you have lost your chance to serve her directly.
Now it's your duty to remain sane and serve the lord who created whole of you, your mind, your heart, your soul everything in the way the lord hints you or directs you.
You are no longer authorised to think about your past. Although you may observe your past to learn from it, to over come your incompetence.
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