"Forever I've been learning to be the ideal person in front of the world, conciously or subconciously, it's deep within me. So often I have a feeling that I'm not being honest with people, like having a facade for them to like me, and a lingering guilt when they praise me for what I believe I'm not. Also when I'm struggling to meet expectations, even though it's the real me out in the open, I feel weary and queasy, like I don't wanna show what I'm going through. Any suggestions or words to help get rid of this uncanny hotchpotch of feelings?"
"All of us are a secret treasure to ourselves. When we spend our time trying to be someone else for people, we earn a little of their praises, but we lose the privilege to explore the treasure within us. You are guilty because you are wasting time in something that's not helpful for your true purpose.
In a world, where being real is oftentimes being weak, the uncanny feeling is natural. It's so different from what we are conditioned to become---perfect or a certain version of normal.
Knowing a stranger is often nerve wrecking. In this case, we are the stranger to ourselves. Take one day at a time, let it flow. The relationship."
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