I once mistook solitude for loneliness.
I used to think having to spend time by myself was lonely.
Like I didn't have anything better to do or anyone else to be with.
But the past few years were a revelation.
Now I know how important it is to be comfortable being on my own.
And how healing that can be.
So being alone doesn't mean you are lonely.
In fact, I find that being alone at times has helped me grow closer to others.
Because I was not driven by the thought that I had to be around people just so that I wouldn't be lonely,
Now I'd rather stay home than be out with people and feel lonely over there.
But I have come to appreciate every person in my life more and more.
How they have helped me be comfortable with my quirks
I'd always thought having people around was the only way you could feel complete.
I have always been too scared to let go of anyone and everyone.
But solitude has helped me improve and care more about all of my relationships.
Helped me realize who and what mattered the most.
Now I feel more independent, thoughtful, and attached to myself and those I love.
I used to think being lonely was way better than being alone.
Oh, how things have changed.-
Aren't we all a little selfish
We wish good for others
But then at the end of the day; those are all the people we think we need in our lives
Every deed, in one way or the other is to just make ourselves feel better
Make ourselves feel more complete
But that's not wrong untill it's causing harm to someone else
Everyone we love, everything we do comes down to one thing 'Me'.
And that's okay
We keep telling ourselves that we are doing things for others
To make them happy
But are we really...?
Deep inside we know it's just to make ourselves feel better
To make ourselves feel alive
But that's alright
If this selfishness is what makes us to be good
Then what's wrong in it; what's wrong in being selfish
It need not always be a selfless deed;
All that is needed is that we don't hurt someone else on the way of finding happiness.-
Have you ever told a different version of the same story in your head again and again
A better version every other time you thought of it
Such that you totally forgot what the actual story was
With a hunger to make it more and more appealing to yourself or maybe others
You lost the not so exciting yet authentic story of your's
Every time you put a little spin in it; you thought to yourself that this one sounded better
To such an extent that now you don't know what it really felt to have experienced that
This is what life's about too
Just to make it more of what you want than what it actually is
You make effort on things that wouldn't matter in the end
Because the more you try perfecting everything
You lose yourself bit by bit-
In a world where everyone's in a hurry
Where everyone's running behind something they don't even want to hold onto
In between all this chaos
Why don't you just stop
And take a moment to look around
Instead of looking at stories on social media
Why don't you try to see stories unravel around you
And be there for someone who might really need you-
As a kid I would wake up being terrified of
Demons that would haunt me in my sleep
All I wished was ,for them to not come back
But then my grandpa once told me
That there was something more powerful
Someone who would always protect me from those horrible thoughts
GOD he said
But now it's a different tale
Nothing makes me feel that vulnerable
Beacuse now I know I am much stronger than I thought
That I am in charge of what I see & what I let in
Now even the darkest deamons ,
Not only the one's that I was scared as a child
But even those which lurk around
Wouldn't dare to bother me
Because I know what my mind is capable of
What I am capable of
I know what to let in & what to chase off
My mind was both a villian & a hero
All that would bother me, was just in my head and nowhere else
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Your life is nothing but a movie
A movie where u get to write your own script
Yeah ,sometimes u do let others write it for u
But not for long
You take multiple retakes
Once u know what was going wrong all that while
There u have, the perfect shot.
U get to choose who u let into the plot
There are characters without whom the the story cannot go on
And then there are those special appearances
Who don't really stay for long
But they do leave a impact on your story
Sometimes good and sometimes not really
That's all it is
Once u have mastered the skill of pulling the strings
The show keeps on going.
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Being an ambivert
I am a mixture of sensitiveness and chaos
Sometimes I'm all over the place
And there are days when all i need, is to be alone
If I'm all crazy around you and i speak out my heart
That's coz i know you are not gonna judge me for being me
Then, there are those times when people tend to mistake my silence with attitude
But i swear,it has nothing to do with anyone
It's just the way i am
I take my time
And if you are patient enough to bear me all that while
I promise, I'll never let u down.
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Don't u have those days
when all that u want is to not fall into greed
And cry over the things that u barely need
And wished that u had thought a little less
And not made yourself into a mess
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