You're
Sad,
Frustrated,
Angry,
Depressed,
Desperate,
all at the same time
You're in pain but you still want to feel the pain,
To see the blood to have a scar,
A scar a memory, a pain you have went through,
You cut ,
Your body is in pain but your mind at ease.
It feels so good your mind asks for more,
then one turns to two and two to four.
There's no stopping yourself from the warmness flowing through.
Everyone is happy around you, why can't you be too?
A smile appears on your lips from within every time you cut..

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And she began to laugh but she didn't laugh with the natural urge which can't help but takeover one, to which I then become embarrassed. She laughed to embarrass with intention. Intention to laugh hard .As she loved. As she hates..

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I trace your cheekbones
your nose,
With fingers warmed on you,
And wet eyes,
I can't believe
Something breathing
Can lay here
To stay and to spend..

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The earth rotates and you're there,
You're there with me
sometimes but the problem with sometimes,
is that sometimes knows in order to
be Some of a Time there has to be it's “other"
Otherwise it wouldn't call itself sometimes it would call itself “always”..

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At my own funeral,
I'm dressed,
No feelings I'm dead
But I still want your body..

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I fear attachment but I get too attached to people,
I'm not someone to be with hundred different people,
I find a heart,
I make a home,
I guess that's why right now,
I feel
so alone,
so cold
so numb
that I feel homeless now..

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All I want is to sit in dark holding your hands
for a while when all the words are faded, and it's just our hearts humming and singing to the same tune silently...

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All I want is your attention,
I look for you,
So you look at me..

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I have nothing to hide,
my emotions for you are too naked,

And that's ok..
It's ok to be naked..
As I have no means to hide them..

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If I could write you a book about the world in which I woke and tried another night to sleep, but at it's end, still you'll have to take my words for it that no words none of them could take you to the world I'm in and make you understand what I have and what I'm going through..

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