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Sometimes it make me feel sad when I realise this thing later that why I am crying at the wrong place. Like..most of the times. And I hate this. It hurts me only. I seriously need to work on this. And I try. But, still I miserably fails sometimes. How I wish I know in advance where to stop, when and how to hold, when to keep patience. Oh patience! I mean how tiring it feels sometimes to keep saying "keep patience patience patience", when you don't want to keep patience patience patience. By the way, I like the people who fight for themselves and i like to take stand for myself too..but I hate the idea to keep arguing because I simply feel tired. A simple sorry saves my piece of mind at those times. And also, why didn't they teach us in school "how not to get involved". I mean..I am still poor in such skills. How I wish I could cut attachment in pieces. I hate to be an emotional girl. Not everyone cherish a vulnerable heart. And that hurts. But, that's how I am.

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I am with you even when you are not with you.

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Dear Louie..

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Kill my efforts
Smash my heart
Peel off my emotions
Tear off my innocence
Damn! Make me more strong
Give me a new heartbreak
Don't let me heal properly
Call me a fool
A fool who stayed longer at the place
where she knew she was suffocating
Laugh at my vulnerable heart
Ha ha ha
Come, let's laugh together
Ha ha ha
Come, watch me laughing at my heart
My bloody fool heart
My bloody फूल heart
See you can't see my tears
Did you see my tears?
I want to cry but..
I am laughing at my heart
Ha ha ha
I didn't want to be that strong!

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