"Hey, are you gay?
But you look normal!"

Normal.
Such an overrated bitch.

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You're like the gush of strong wind in a long, summer's day. The kind that feels a bit too strong, but you need it anyway. The kind that shakes you up, and yet manages to soothe your soul.

You're a reminder that I can still feel. You're the reminder that I can still want to be with someone. Believe me, you're one of the nicest persons I've ever known. And I don't care how much you're certain that you aren't, the truth is, you inevitably are.

I don't know what this decade has in store for us. But here's wishing - only the best!

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It's here. The end of a decade that has been crazy. Crazy amazing, crazy weird, crazy cruel, even. So many connections lost, so many built. So many habits dropped, so many evolved. There has been so much of personal growth, so many books read, so many yet to read; so many pieces written, so many more to write, for this, is just the beginning. So many new experiences experienced. So many fears gotten over, so much achieved. In a single word, this decade has been epic.

Thank you to those who stuck with me through this decade. Thank you to the ones chosen to be with me now. And warm wishes to those moved on, and those I've outgrown. We've all lived through this decade - through thick and thin.

And this one is the last one for 2019 :) Thank you for everything :).

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"You brought
poetry
back to
me
when happiness (almost)
left
my soul."

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I don't know how to do this,
Loving you, and then the whole unloving thing -
Just show me a way,
I can't do it my way,
Because it hurts,
Bleeding over the same wound,
It hurts like crazy.

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sometimes,
all i want to
do is
run away; and
never look back...

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I tried, believe me
To be the person I used to be
The one who loved love,
And believed
That love healed
Everything.

I tried to hold on to her
I tried to keep her believing
In magic and in dreams.
I said "See the stars? They shine so bright
Don't you still see the glow in their eyes?"
And she said "I'm not that person, you see,
I now know,
Stars don't carry magic within,
They're just balls of fire,
Far, far away, and if you
Ever try to go near one,
You'll end up burning yourself!"

She used to be the one who believed
In stories, and magic, and fairy tales and dreams,
And now, she's just another grown up
Who only wishes Santa could be real,
But she knows better.

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Stop settling for scraps of love.

Someone who'll truly love you will not keep you wondering, or waiting. They will not keep you hurting. Just know that you deserve someone who will choose you, and choose you over and over again, and be very sure about their choice.

You deserve someone who will love you completely for the perfect mess that you are! Don't you dare settle for anything less than that!

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... and when it's
cold and dark, and
tears well up
for no reason
that you can
comprehend,
tell yourself that it's okay,
the storm will end
and you'll find happiness,
and everything else that
you have wished for.

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i didn't want to
let my guard down,
but you made me do.

i wish though,
that i'd listened to
my fear; at least
it would have kept
my heart safe.

'never again' -
a promise i'd
made to myself.
how can i
expect someone to
keep theirs, when
i break
my own promise to myself
every single day...

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