Want to cry but can't,
Don't want to smile but have to.....

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A reflection of,
A person who has nothing left in life..
Have lost every bit of hopes from everyone..
Is still traumatized by past incident,
Totally numb and souless who feels nothing, cause this world is sore..
Trust issue has spread all over her mind..
Standing still and showing fake smile,
As if she has all the happiness of this world.
But actually suffering from lonliness,
And has put her real self in the corner behind the smile .....

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The memories of past that showers on me, Every night..
Filling tears fully in my eyes
Terrified by all the people who used me, and ignored me as,
I am invisible when I needed them..
Fear of losing someone, precious to me again...
Regretting many life decisions..
Suffering from trust issue with everyone infront of my vision...

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Put me in the situation of "do or die"...
And, occasionally at the same time in the position of "laugh and cry"...

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The Earth was covered by "First snow"...
And was changed from brown to white..
The sky was filled with stars..
And was shining bright...
On that day there was,
The magnificent, golden touch on the white moonlight...
As I was destined to meet you.
"On that beautiful night".....

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I take a glance at you
Even if I can't look at you with full admiration...
I am the happiest when,
I see you smiling,
Even if that smile is not for me.
I am the happiest when,
When you speak,
Even those words are not for me,
But it is a beautiful melody for me...
I am the happiest when,
I am walking next to you,
Even as a stranger....
I am the happiest even when
You are near me ,
But not for me......_

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Who judge's me,
Without even trying to know me..
I hide from those
Who knows me,
But never understand me..
They can never see my hidden side,
And Fun fact is this that-
No one actually understand's me.....

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Beautiful moments and our hidden emotions in heart..... Which you can feel and see, when our eyes are closed...
And are not always possible to happen in reality__

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The weather of listening mollifying music..
Closing eyes,
Letting the drops of precious and hurtful remembrance,
Inside the cage of your heart wet you....
So that next day a greenery of new memories sorround you.__

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Train has stop on the station of my life ...
With people's like happiness and sorrow....
After sometime which has to go forward to its destination,
And will come back,
But not with same people like with same sorrow and happiness__

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