When I lost my best friend to suicide, I thought he left because I was unwanted. But now I realize the pain he was in while undergoing self harm and abandonment despite being there for him as much as I could be there.
The weirdness we shared and annoyed each other till we were fed up, The promises we made to have each other's backs till the end were all buried down to the ground.
Oh how I wish u were here. I am sorry I couldn't save you. I was just 13 years old. And I am sorry that I couldn't understand what you were going through, I am sorry.
But after you left this world, I sank into depression,
and that's when I learnt the meaning of self harm to relieve the inner pain. I wish I could visit your grave today, put your favorite blue roses on the ground, letting u know how much I miss you.
I just wish you were alive today, we could've celebrated your 27th bday today. I know you tried your best but you couldn't stay and I hated you for leaving me in despair for so long but I am sorry I couldn't save you.
Happy birthday, Johnny 💖
(You will always be missed & remembered)
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