When you became stranger to me again, all I could wonder was " Was that even real?" And trust me the answer to this question never really kept my eyes dry, cause All I ever wanted was to be someone to you and it hurt alot when I realise I am just 'someone' to you now. Everything you promised, makes me doubt love. Was that all true? Or was I living in my own illusion? Life's been really alright, pretty fun actually, meeting new people, But everything gets gloomy when I don't have you to share my stories with. I am currently tired of alot of things, people, schedule, I know you can make everything alright, but Even Though I know I need you, I don't want you, and this fills me with guilt and hurts me alot cause I never thought it would ever end the way it ended. "WE WILL COMMUNICATE" You said. But I never got the chance to. Or maybe you never really wanted to. You were running from your past and I was just there when you needed me, and when The need was over you realised "WE WON'T WORK" Or maybe you never wanted to. Everything you said that night, still makes me think "How come your love changed so fast?" But sometimes answers hurt, alot. And it all comes back to "Was that even real?"
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