I found this beautiful flower today and it reminded me of how fragile life is. Nature teaches us that something that blooms has to die eventually and a new flower will bloom in its place. It was a reflection of how tired my soul is. She's tired of being accused of things she never did. Tired of being blamed when all she did was from the good conscience of her heart. Tired of trying to explain the pain she feels to people who don't understand what it means to be broken. But today nature was a reminder that something had to die in my soul for something new to blossom eventually. Losing someone you love the most is never easy and as heart breaking as it might be it's just nature's way of letting us know it's time to carry your cross with all the pain it holds and move on. Maybe the plant will bloom again or it may never live to see another day.
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It's not easy being broken. It's not easy curling up under the shower in pure desperation to wash off your desires. It's not easy to turn around, throw the match, burn the bridge and smile. It's not easy to take a step and make the effort to walk back to sanity. It's not easy to wake up each morning to a hope that you know is a lie. Yes you can cry until you bleed words. In a world filled with masks you are lucky to have seen a soul. But love just remember- to burn with desire and to silence your urge for it is the darkest sin that you can commit. For you knew all along that you longed for the love that would set your heart on fire. You knew that an ask like that would come with a price. And I guess you knew the price you had to pay. Well darling what can I say? After all it never bothered you to be burnt to ashes, only to be gone with the wind carrying with you memories of you and him..
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You look around at the happy faces, people laughing, children playing, cars passing by and then you wonder to yourself " How is that I find peace in chaos". Sometimes the answer lies within you. Sometimes the answer is out there. When you are waiting, longing, troubled to find out if he is ok. Sometimes it's worth the wait. Most times it's not. But Darling don't wound yourself waiting so long that your demons start crawling out of the closet again!
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I held his hand hoping one day he would lead me into his dark land. I closed my eyes and unclenched my fists to embrace his world and make it one with mine. Now as I stood looking at him under a starry light, a shiver goes down my spine as I finally realize that him and his world are entirely mine!
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When all else fails where do you go? What do you do? Do you live? Or do you die? Or do you just survive? Live with the pain and move? Or just brush it down the layers of your heart which is already torn apart? Where do you go find answers to the insanity of your mind? Does everything end this way? Is there no hope left at all? Maybe this is why you do what you want. This is why you belong to no man & no land. Because in the end nothing is worth the crushing pain in your heart.
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Sometimes it rains & sometimes it snows. Sometimes the sun beams in all it's glory while sometimes it hides behind the clouds. It gets darker and it gets darker. And then suddenly you see the light. Life sometimes is a walk of seasons. It might seem rainy & gloomy tonight but tomorrow is a brand new day! Embrace it as it comes but be warned for the night is long and there might be stories in which you don't belong!
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Just when you thought the storm has ended, The disruption it caused was over, Just when you thought you could look out to the horizon and see the clear skies, the dark shadows starts erupting again behind the walls. Why would you never leave me I ask. I'm happy now let go of me. Stop following me around and creeping up on my deepest darkest fears I plead. And all I heard back was a whisper that said "You knew you were doomed the first time you invited me into your life & now you are stuck with me forever. I'm never going to leave you" it laughed.
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