बद्दुआ नहीं है, दुआ है,
जो तकलीफ़ तुमने दी है मुझे!
तुम जिंदगी भर खुश ना रहो,
और ये दुआ देते हुए भी मुझे ही तकलीफ़ होती है,
और अगर तुम्हें लगता है,
तुमने जो किया, जैसा किया, अच्छा किया मेरे साथ,
तो बैरहाल रब करे ये अच्छा तुम्हारे साथ भी हो।

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CURRENT LIFE UPDATE OF MINE😊

Struggling to breath,
Anxiety and panic attack,
Shivering body,
Losing weight,
Lost charm in face,
Feeling mentally and physically weak.
If there's anything left, please come quickly. I'm at my limit and can't handle this anymore. I feel like giving up.
Will this suffering end after my death?

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क्या अजीब इत्तेफ़ाक है,
हमें उसने धोखा दिया,
जो हर एक शक्श के चेहरे पर,
मुस्कान रखता है।

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I WAS IN DARK

I was in dark, from last six months,
She's dating guys while staying with me,
Maybe three or four, in this silent scene.

I was in dark, from last six months,
She was spending time with me.
But also going to movies and nights out with another guy oh my!
They're both commenting on each other's posts,
With heart and kiss emojis, and liking them the most.

I was in dark, from last six months,
Her mom's following that guy too.
She told her mom, I found a guy by own,
And she told me my family found a guy for me.

I was in dark, from last six months,
She said, "I can't be with someone new, it's you I love,"
But that was just a lie, I found out, and more.
Blaming me for cheating, she always cried,
But the truth's different, deep inside.

I was in dark, from last six months,
I’m still in love with her and I hate my self for this.
Still waiting for her come back, still try to talk to her,
I’m just her timepass, she bored and left me.

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I’M MENTALLY DISTURB AND PHYSICALLY WEAK

I’m mentally disturb and physically weak,
She made me this way, then walked away when I needed her most.
I don’t like anything ,want to go someplace,
Need to be alone, figure out who I am.

I’m mentally disturb and physically weak,
Surrounded by fake friends, no real care.
Who don’t even concern my problems,
Just pretending they care for me.

I’m mentally disturb and physically weak,
I just want someone who truly cares,
Real friends who are always there.
To listen my boring tales, no matter what I say,
And give me strength to rise above it all.

I’m mentally disturb and physically weak,
Love and friends, both are temporary.
Left me when I needed them most,
But when they need me, I’m there to lend a hand.

I’m mentally disturb and physically weak,
I don't know how much I feel this pain,
But it won't last forever, I'll rise again.
With the sunrise, I’ll greet the sunrise,
Singing my old song, moving on.

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Likhu to kya baat likhu, tum keh do to dil k jasbat likhu

Wo jo tera har baat pr dhamkana,
Har choti choti baato pr zid karna,
Har choti se choti pershani pr muje yaad karna,
Muje bada pasand aata hai, tum bolo

Likhu to kya baat likhu, tum keh do to dil k jasbat likhu

Yaad hai tumhe, jab tum raato ko muje sota huye dhekti thi,
Ghar se college taak k safar mai tumhe chedte huye jana,
Kahi beech raste mai ruk k tumhe ice cream khilana,
Or wo tumhara wala helmet, jo aaj bhi sambhal rakha hai, tum bolo

Likhu to kya baat likhu, tum keh do to dil k jasbat likhu

Tumhare naraz hone pr tumhare ghr aake tumhe chocolate dena,
tumhara gussa hote bhi khate huye bolna mai naraz hu,
Pher achanak se tumhara muskurana, tum bolo

Likhu to kya baat likhu, tum keh do to dil k jasbat likhu

Yaad to wo har pal aata hai, jo bhi tumhare saath guzra,
Batau to kya kya batau, tum sunte reh jaoge or mai bata ta reh jaunga,
Bas itna batana hai tumhari yaad aati hai
Or tum bolo

Likhu to kya baat likhu, tum keh do to dil k jasbat likhu

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WHAT IF! SHE CALLS ME NOW ?

If she calls me now, I'll run to her again. I'll grab my keys and I'll run really fast, like a crazy cow,
hurry over to help her with whatever she needs, just like before.

I'll always see her as my love, not my ex. Even if she gets married, she'll still be mine. I'll forgive whatever she did, and I won't hold it against her.

I just need her to come back again, and this time, make a promise from the heart to never leave me again and never look for someone else.

I still hope you'll come back one day, realize your mistakes, feel sorry, and stay with me forever, just like you always told me.

Even with your kids, I accepted you. And I've always said I want to be intimate even when we're old because I love you now and forever. My feelings for you will never change.

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ANXIETY TAKING HEAVY TOLL

Anxiety taking heavy toll, in this dark time
You left me alone, with broken heart.
In this tough moment, I need you close,
I can’t able handle my self.

Anxiety taking heavy toll, in this situation,
First time in my life, I call a friend.
Expecting they will help me out but,
They’re re just friend in name but not in heart.

Anxiety taking heavy toll, in this hard time,
Realized no one's truly mine, especially those Ioved,
My friend wasn't there when I needed them more.
Won't ask again, won't knock on their door,
Now I won't ask again, for life, at any coast.

Anxiety taking heavy toll, in this pain,
My heart denying, you don’t need me again.
But still hope for your return, and
Saying why are you so tense?
Your love still with you.

Anxiety taking heavy toll, in this alone time,
I believe you love me, still care deep inside,
Missing me quietly, don't let it hide.
Just remember, I'm your healing light,
Come back, my love, let's make things right.
I don't need fake friends, that's clear,
Just you, my love, forever near.

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पायल की छन छन से,
नगमा जो पुराना है,
नूर सा चमकता है,
तेरी सोनी जेसी आँखों में।

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THERE IS A GIRL I KNOW

There is a girl I know, she was not my friend,
But now she is my friend, I can say that.
In times of trauma, she stands by my side.
Helping me through, in every possible way.

There is a girl I know, who hears my tales,
Day and night, even at works she listens to me.
Motivating me with every call she takes,
Never once causing irritation or breaks.

There is a girl I know, who tries to lift me up from this dark time,
She stops my sadness, helping me stay strong.
She speaks on behalf of my, keeping our bond keen.

There is a girl I know, now you are my friend,
I can say that, a special part of my tale,
I'll always remember how you helped me stay strong, in my dark time.

There is a girl I know, I’ll share a beer with my new friend that’s clear,
Celebrating together, spreading cheer.
Lost my girlfriend, but gained a friend so dear,
In life's journey, new connections appear.

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