you learn from me
to brief y at its tail.
you tell me that
your handwriting is
not as good as mine.
you write my name
darkening its first letter
and in that gesture, I bolden
myself in more ways
than one
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I quite wrote not,
nor said it enough.
In the clean and
unshown light,
I became a star
of the day— you don’t see.
I didn’t ask you to.
At night, you’d want,
but not. And I’d remain
—just be, unasked.-
Some days
ask leaves to vein in
the core of soil.
You start
asking if the fall
had its reasons.
In the silence of greens,
wind grows weary
of carrying wrong messages —
how to let go without noise,
and not awaken
earthly protest.
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yesterday, the sky looked
just like milk turning into paneer.
my sorrow broke,
separating from the hope.
I stepped out
of the stifling heat of the bus,
and it stirred in me slowly—
thoughts curdling
through the layers of my numb mind.
The silence of the street
crowded in
each realisation cold
like unboiled milk—
in quiet unsettling.-
I wash my face
in the reflection of whom
is a mirror so capturing.
I loose my sight, and let
myself be washed
off into you.
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on the blindfold of luck I stumbled upon choices,
only when I loosened the grip did I see
what was mine to truly choose.
I met my blue. Asked it to the sky —
held in sparkling white
and footed to a swathe that offered shadows.
Over and again I returned to the must of the street
with guilt heavy in my feet.
As I walked, I stretched lights,
touched corners and broke softly.
I ran to the trees for the noise
that the sunlight made.-
I got my right ear pierced with a silver ring. There was no pain—not even the sting of the needle. I had to ask him if it was really done.
As I looked at myself in the mirror, I gently caressed my earlobe. The ring. There was no blood. I could swivel it effortlessly.
When I returned home, my mother applied mustard oil boiled with garlic cloves. Lying on my left side, careful not to flip over, I felt a faint discomfort. It grew, slowly but surely, into excruciating pain. I couldn’t touch it. I slept, enduring it.
Over the next few days, my ear started to recover. Yet, every time I attempted to rotate the ring voluntarily, the pain varied in intensity. At times, it ached so much that I wanted to take it out and let the pain fade. At others, it was so sensitive that even the wind’s touch stung. And sometimes, though untouched, it throbbed with a lingering affliction.
Now. I have a gold piece. It shines.
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what feels like
a heavy rope
perfectly arched
on skin, is grief—
kept in balance
until it aches.-