How can a dad or mom not talk to you properly but can make you talk to their friends on a video call every time they are at a gathering or in a marriage event.

Aah it sucks to be as a daughter and endure this, that too living this far from everybody …

Do i not deserve that care from them primarily, just because am not ready to get married to some random guy.

Fuck man!

Letter to the toxic society that causes such troubles.

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It was a busy day,
yeah we had been handling events and working..
Our regular call time popped..
But couldn’t rap up the work at office by then!!

Time crossed, Damn..
Different time zones pulled us to reality that,

With so much eagerness,,
Made a call and understood that you slept!!!

I know you waited… but i had tears since i couldn’t hear your voice for the day…

In a while, my face had a wide smile..

Yeah, I saw the pic of my favourite dish as your dinner in snap from you!

Such little things keep our smiles alive! Right..

I went to the mirror, saw your shadow and whispered,I will sleep today happily on receiving virtually this love bite !

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There was a girl butterfly which was always insecure about its relationship ..
As the boy butterfly had lot of other girl butterflies to fly and also never revealed them or the world that his girl butterfly of love was only her!!!!

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A wet pillow in the morning means,
there was sex and orgasm between your mind and heart,
that it just exploded and you got high!!

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I tried, I tried,
And yeah! I tried to leave you,
Coz my dad said no.
Yeah, thinking at least I could be a better daughter that way.

I tried, I tried,
And yeah! I tried to love someone in a way dad would like,
Coz he would say yes.
Yeah, thinking i could hate you with bad moments we shared.

I tried, I tried,
And yeah! I tried to convince myself to replace you with the good things about the new person as I thought that was what I deserve.
Yeah, thinking I could love the new person with some adjustments and make myself feel like home.

I tried, I tried,
And yeah I tried but i failed.
I was not able to,
Your thoughts kept coming and was afraid to be hiding this,
Yeah I failed!
Am here as a failure understanding my home was only you and I did blunder after blunder.

Yeah now am helpless wanting to be understood by my mom womb, my home and that everything was you.
Home is not everywhere or can easily be created.

I don’t know why all this happened but i took so long to know my home was only you until you touched me again.

Will that touch be with me till my last breath?

Yeah am afraid to lose my home.
Yeah am afraid to lose my home.
Yeah!!! (Screaming)

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I tried to make you hate me and when that really made you hate me,
I understood I was so stupid to have done that.
Am sorry for being a fool!

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I can never afford to lose you.
Is there a way this universe could bring us back together?

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When someone cares and you get to be harsh on them just think will they not be hurt?

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I met a lot of people in life, they were a lot better than you but they weren’t you!
And it took time to understand i belonged to you and not to anything else, my love!

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My dad is a person who values more about how society looks at him and what they talk about him. I always reply to that asking will this society join me when i leave this world someday? And i also insist when we leave this earth we would never take the money or wealth we own and how we feel at the last breath having the last memory and owning that last smile with sense of satisfaction means everything!
And today I thought on his bday which is making him get retirement i wanna make my words strong by saying him, I don’t own any of my organs too, coz I believe in making memories and spreading happiness and so i want him as-well with all the blessings in world to enjoy his second innings of life making more memories and smile.
Live and let live! Journey of Staying alive through the smiles of others.

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