I'm so in love with you
Sorry for what I put you through
My heart is in a better place
Surrounded by your grace

Feelings I can't seem to shake
Thoughts of you before bed
Dreams of you before I awake
Only fear is being played

Some people change and
Some stay the same
Never playing games
But winning is the only thing

You are who I want
No need to explain
Never taking for
granted any single day

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What have I done
My heart weighs a ton
Hauling my emotions on
This highway of love

I love you too
If you only knew
I don't deserve me
Let alone you

Some decisions aren't the best ones
Please forgive my mistakes
I know I messed up
I'm trying to be brave
and just keep my head up

When I look to the stars
I only see you
The speed of lights reflection
Reveals how much I miss you

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Under the eyelids of my soul I can see your reflection
I feel the warmth of your skin against mine
I can taste the wine from your lips
I run my fingers through the memory of your hair

Lost in a dream world I have created between you and
I
I can't tell a lie, I can't get you off my mind
Believe me I've tried and you always come back to life
Revived from the magic of my
unconscious thoughts

Plowing through emotions yet trapped like a mouse
gets caught
Except I am still breathing
my feelings never give up hope for you

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The words have not been
coming but the emotions
have
I keep feeling, keep healing,
until this life's a wrap

Trying to understand and
living with meaning,
searching and dreaming,
along the long lit path

Moments of forgiveness
with people of significance
Writing my purpose,
I'm the only witness

Sensitive senses reveal true
intentions
I wish I was wrong but
now my withdrawal
invokes me as pretentious

I have no fear just a new year
to do me with conviction

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Stuck in reflection
and craving connection
All of life's lessons
The thoughts I am wrestling

Yearning for someone who
really just gets me
Windows of the soul
Cosmically connecting

I haven't found you yet
I know you're somewhere
Beneath the clouds sorrow
Above the thoughts of nowhere

Come to me now
Let the universe manifest you
We've danced in my dreams
So I can wake up next to you

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I dream of a world lit
by the flame of peace
Actions speak to my
thoughts like being lost at sea
Never drowning in chaotic scenes
Writing down dreams that make me
complete
Because when the wax runs out
what did I do in between
What lessons have I learned from
the wicks unconscious heat
Melting into a new shape is my escape
Fragrant moments detected
from tranquil memories reflected
Stay humble and always count your blessings

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I'll never forget that dreadful day
The cloud from the collapse
Reached in every which way
Terror was that place

Conspiracy theories dominate
Unless it was your loved one
Who became one of the names
Since has been nothing but hate

Between the internet, the attack,
And career politicians on stage
Division is the new game
Playing at the highest of stakes

I want my country back without
Care who's too blame
Let's all join together again
This is the United States

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PTSD
It's not wrong or right
Almond shaped amygdala
Centered vertically with the eyes

Did you know
It effects fight or flight
Some relive the memories
Others avoid things that remind

How can something so small
Create memories that plant this
By incorrectly applying past experiences to
Current circumstances

Many suffer from different life events
I wish I had a cure for each set of fingerprints
The journey continues remember if you can
Just be kind and hold someone's hand

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I found a new lense
In which to make friends
Removing the stinger as
present becomes past tense

New lines form from the
Wrinkles of an amazing ride
Connecting the memories
Only lost in the highs

A piece of me left behind
Swirling energy of mine
Time is but a snapshot
Focused with the mind

Value and class never
Collapse, high roads of
Tranquil moment's offer
What unconditional love never distracts

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Life before you, two I do's
It didn't work, it does with you
Leading is humble, grounded a must
Love is made, through growth and trust

Psychology displayed with wisdom not lust
Armor not needed, eventually it rusts
Together forever, day's aren't always sunny
We're the relationship meter,
that keeps on running

We met with guns and did not shoot
Stuck on each other like crazy glue
Pinch if you want, I know I'm awake
After pain, pleasure awaits

Never hidden is the agenda
Transparency is always the witness
I can't make it up, I'd feel guilty not to admit
This our life and I'm glad that it is

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