You know how stupid. Mad. Fool I am.
When I try to eat food in a plate
I even think 5 minutes from which side
I have to start to eat and with which curry
should I take my first bite of food.
I lost in thinking myself even in small things
And overthink till i frustrated
How fucking mind mine is.
And how fucking weird I am.
How fucking insane I am.
Even I can't take decisions on small things

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If you are a good. Well behaved being.
Good character. Rise your voice against bad
And criminal activities.
Speak about bad society in society.
Does that mean you are a good person.
No. No. No. A big fucking no.
You maybe good. Well mannered.
Has Good character. Rise your voice against bad
Things in society only.
Out of the society, Who are you?.
In society you will get validations
for your good things. Well mannered.
Good character. When it comes to out of the
society, there is no validation. No attention.
No applauses you will get.
Then who are you? Out of the society.
Without these. No attention. No validation.
No claps. No applauses.
Who are you am asking you?

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I have read many things.
I have read many philosophies.
I have read many theories.
I have read many books.
I have read many poems.
I have read many holy books.
But, I have not experienced 5% of them,
Which I have read.
I think I am the only one exists like this.
Alas no. No. There are many peoples.
It strengthens your ego.
Strengthens your pride.
Gives you feeling of you knew everything.
When I explain what I read to others.
I feel like a pride moment.
But it is not pride, it is purest subtle form of ego.
When I find any other person equal to me,
knows more than me, I feel jealous towards them
Get anger. It Hurts my ego.
This is what the human fucking nature.

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Most dangerous thing for an artists is,
The ready made knowledge 
And ready made answers 
Ready made Understanding.
These things will stop the very creativity 
Of n artist. 
Whenever heshe try to create he/she remembers
The ready made knowledge.
Ready made Answer.
Ready made Understanding.
His/her creation will die before it take birth.
Due to these ready made things.

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I am in the system of society.
I can't think according to myself. 
I can't live according to myself.
I can't say according to my freedom.
If I do every CAN'T as CAN.
the very system of society will automatically 
Drag you into system, and I will dwell automatically 
Into system with great inner conflicts and war.

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The greatest attention seekers.
The greatest validation seekers.
Are not the normal human beings.
First POLITICIANS.
Second THE ARTISTS.
Every POLITICIAN will seek
validation And attention.
But only out of 100% the 95% ARTISTS
will seek the attention to their art
And needs validation to their very art.

ARTISTS don't know this consciously.
The conscious mind says they don't seek
Any attention and validation for their ART
It's not true, when someone appreciates
The work of ARTIST, they feel like
They are in the seventh sky from within.
If you don't feel Et Voila. You are as equal
As. BEETHOVEN. SHAKESPEARE.
VINCENT VAN GOGH. DOSTOEVSKY.
RAPHAEL. LEO TOLSTOY.

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I knew that real and authentic
Will not get any attention nor they seek it.
If I being true and authentic with everyone
It's obvious that I will lose everyone.
Being real and authentic with everyone
Seems like spitting on their faces.
Which everyone get instant anger
Instant ego rise and Instant jealous feel.
Neither men have balls to face the real me
Nor any girl or women.
Nowadays real and authentic is too rare
And fake is too cheap.
Fake is stimulating your brain and giving
More soothing experience than truth. Real authentic.
Real. Truth and authenticity is losing its essence
And quality due to fake and false.
It is not even stimulating your brain and heart
As fake and false do.

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Conversation between two friends
Sometimes feel like katharsis

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Normal humans are
More dangerous than
An intoxicated human
with High in alcohol or any drug.

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