Sometimes, my cat Coco used to sleep by my side when I studied. His head would always be on my lap, and I could slightly see his tiny teeth when he sometimes let out a little sigh. He'd sleep peacefully, I'd read silently, and when it was time to get up I'd always pick his head in my palm carefully, gently putting a cushion under it. He'd keep sleeping. When I came back I'd put my lap at the exact same position as before, right under his little head. When he woke up, I'd see the glint in his eye, a gladness that I was still there, that I hadn't moved at all. And then he'd go back to slumbering in peace.
Now when I sit by his grave I wonder if he knows I'll leave sometime later, come back again, and sit exactly where I was before.
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