I can't accept you.
The reason is because I still love you. I always have loved you more than anything. And that's the only reason I can't have you in my life. As soon as we'll be back together, you'll again start to rip my soul and shatter my heart. And this time too, I won't be able to stop you from doing this because i love you that much. You don't understand why can't i have you right?
It's because even if you fail to lower my love for you, but eventually in the process, you'll succeed to break my hope. Doesn't matters how strong my feelings are for you but, my heart won't be able to survive with love without hope. I'll die, and I won't be able to be available for you when you'll need me. You'll be left alone without my care and pounding heart beats. Even the thought of leaving you behind alone haunts me. That's why I'll not accept you this time, so that i could make up things for you and could stay by your side seeing you smiling at me.
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