From childhood
I struggled
To love myself.
I was always told
I'm too sensitive,
Too loud,
Too dumb,
Too gentle,
Too ugly,
Too much of everything.
And now that I'm grown up
I wonder how to be less.
Less thoughtful,
Less giving,
Less affectionate,
Less gracious,
So less that no one can break me.
I lost so many people in life
Some due to my own negligence,
while some betrayed me.
And now I struggle in this vast
Measureless waters waiting
for someone to pull me out
And show that the storms
I have been fighting for so long
Were only meant to teach
How to sail in the sea .
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