Dear Fiza,
You walk the thin line between the familiar and the unfamiliar. One moment you are always there, like a trailing shadow and next you are the gaint of an abyss far away. Have you walked on the balancing rope like they show on adventure channels in the TV? Some walk without support and some need a long stick that helps them balance. When you decide to walk on the rope, you think you don't need a balancing stick. When you are halfway you reconsider your decision. For a split second you want both, the walking stick and the confidence to walk without the walking stick.
For a split second I wonder what I am. The rope on which you walk or the walking stick you are not sure you want. If you are familiar with the unfamiliar, then I am the walking rope. If you are unfamiliar with the familiar, I am the walking stick.
The thin line now walks between the unfamiliar and the familiar.
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