I was in arrant dolor, waiting for a reply--
Waiting for a riposte of any kind;
Longing for sustenance,
Wishing--praying--for reprieve.
I look at those, reveling in happiness;
People who seem so blessed;
Grass, greener, beneath their dominions;
While this, of mine, withered and neglected.
Desperate queries, floating--swirling;
Swallowing me in utter bereavement.
Why--why, oh why, my God?
Why, this ferocious cycle of pain?
I succumb to the desolate hurt, I feel;
Just wanting every ache, annulled.
With quivering lips and tearful eyes, I lay.
But then, an angel whispers, gently:
"God allows us to be deprived--to be
emptied--in order, to be filled."
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