A day in April 2011:
I just got done with my 12th class Boards and told my parents about my desire to give CDS exam. It shook everyone in my home. Being the only son, no one had expected this in any case. I was made to have a conversation with my elder cousin who was a major back then in Indian Army. He asked me to try to come as an engineer in Army but I was adamant to come in as a combatant. No second measures. When asked why, my answer was "to protect my people". But that was one day I remember I held back the most amount of tears I've known in me. I'm a victim, a patient of flat foot which was alone enough to disqualify me in physical fitness tests even if I clear the written exam.
I have been an Army fan and an Army aspirant with a dream to operate a sniper in Nation's interest someday. It doesn't seem to be happening ever for all valid reasons.
But this all went in front of my eyes like a flashback and I caught myself in a situation where I was just sitting clueless of what I can do. Because I can literally do nothing about it anymore except for being a good civilian.
If only.....
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