I am in the family way
and you put me there,
is what she first told me
immediately she saw me,
last time she looked in on me.
My world shook to its foundation
like the Sumatran earthquake.
For a moment, I lost touch with life,
I couldn't feel the life around me,
sounds around abandoned me,
my mind lost contact with my brain.
I thought to my humble self,
"I can hardly feed myself,
how can I feed one of these little people!"
Then this thought came to me,
"...but it was just one time, one time,
and I pulled out, I sure did pull out!
How is she in the family way,
after just one time, one time?!"
"One must have slipped in from the
battalion released", I heard in solitude.
Fear has taken what is left of me
since she left the news with me.
And I haven't stop thinking
about my life since then.

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I was 11 years of age,
When an older man, around 20,
Wayled me into holding my lollipop,
And taught me to massage it,
Massage it till it melted...

Massaging myself, I waste my time,
I hope that it never happened,
Still, it helps me cure my loneliness,
And I do not ever feel like it,
Criminally assaulting a lady...

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