How long....
How long will I force myself to stay calm when I feel like shouting,
How long will I keep myself focused when I am already shattered,
How long will I trust everyone when I don't even know who they are,
How long will I laugh when my tears are longing to flow,
How long will I listen to everyone when I can't even listen to myself,
How long will I struggle when I am already dead inside,
How long will I make people smile when my own smile is fake,
How long will I tell myself that this dead feeling is actually lively.
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