Rya Ray







You sent me a picture of
yourself when I insisted.
I wish we had
a picture of us.
Anyway, there are
several reasons why
we're drifting.
I am allowing myself
to be disappointed
by people other than you.
We'd have laughed
so much at this,
had we been
together in person.
But then, had we been
together in person,
I think we'd have been
a different story.
I'm tired of being angry.
I'm angry of being tired.
You've been asking me
how I have been. 
In other news,
did you read about
the ghost cities of China?

Conversations that collapse on themselves.

11 JAN AT 22:55

It's 4:25 now. I'd told you we'd meet at 4:30. I am evaluating a situation where I tell you about my idea of not coming along. It probably won't end well for me and you'll talk a lot and I'd not like that, so I'll just come with you. 
I wish I could just jump to a time when all this mess has begun to make sense. On an unrelated note, have you ever looked into my eyes? Also, would you, for once, decide to keep your arm on my shoulder and draw me close in an autorickshaw? I'd like that. For once, could you love me and just love me? Don't give up a love without ever really loving a lot. Also, never be cold to people. Indifference is for Siri. Ask me if I love you. Tell me how it feels like to have 'Yes' for an answer. I like it when you wear a shirt. I want to write about things that don't become you. Honestly, fuck you. I'm tired. You've confused me long enough. I wish we hadn't met. Don't come near me. I might just kiss you. I might just hit your chest with my fists as I lament the loss of my love for you. Men are strange. I wish someone would turn the volume down for everything. I want to go to sleep.

What to not write about at 2:27 A.M.

7 JAN AT 2:27

I've come to believe
that repetition
is the key to forget
more than it is
a key to remember.
There's a reason
why I've been saying
'You're beautiful'
again and again.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful. You're beautiful.

4 JAN AT 13:58

I think tragedy
is better understood 
in things that did not happen 
than in things that did.

Tragedies can be made up of negative space?

29 DEC 2016 AT 21:47