My Little Baby Wolf, You are literally a part of myself,
I never knew a smile can mean so much to a person, until I saw you do it my Nika,
It feels like I'm standing right next to the sun, everytime I see you my spicy paprika😂❤️,
I really wonder, did i stumble upon gold accidentally, but no baby, you are more precious than that, i did find you by accident, but you are not Gold baby, you are literal heaven,
I know it's harder everyday, because i really miss you,
But it will all be worth it one day honey, when i find and kiss you❤️

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The minutes we spared on our calls,
The moments we shared these months,
Yes, it's true, I did love, I did care,
I did more than anyone would ever dare,
Somewhere along the way you forgot I guess,
That I am a man, broken and depressed,
I trusted you will understand, I trusted you will see,
I trusted you to hold and not let me be,
But all you did was break things more,
Memories, moments, minutes I stored,
With words that sting, that final day
I told it hurt, you didnt listen,
Live on smiling, as I walk away,
That will be my final present......

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All I could was smile, Even when I knew i had to fake it,
I gave y'all everything I could, Even when I knew I meant nothing to you all,
Decided not to show my pain, Even when all you did was hurt me,
Feeling broken, now all i can do is watch them leave, knowing I'm of no use any more....
Fake smiles & Faker people...

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Suffocating in the silence,
Heavy are the thoughts,
Into the depth it pulls me down,
Desperately drowning further & further,
Pieces of broken trust & hope,
Tearing away my vision slowly,
I don't want this, Not this way,
The hands that seem helping,
Is truly pushing me away,
One last breath, before i go,
All of them heard it, as i let go,
My heart yelled out, to let everyone know,
Echoes out to the world, i told,
"I am tired, I am tired",
Rest in peace atleast now my dear soul,
While alive, pain was all you've ever known.

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Your smiles and happiness, the things that made me walk,
When all I can feel is a void, the deeper I search just dark,
Tired and weary of the burden I carry,
Full of masks to hide, fake smiles and sorry,
Everything I do, till now & before, you say it's for the greater good,
So many of you, around & near me, still alone I tried and stood,
Gave my hands to anyone who seek, didn't let them go down,
Let them walk and stomp all over me, even let me fall & drown,
Some did try & lost hope, this endless long drop,
Now all I seek and want, is a beautiful Full Stop.

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I keep on thinking, was it unavoidable?..
Maybe a different choice, a different time,
Would it have made a difference?..
I did fall hard, almost lost myself to you,
Were we destined to cross paths?..
Looking back, I don't even know if I regret it,
It was painful, But was it really worth it?..
A mistake to learn from, a scar to remember,
Ever irreversible, deeply unforgettable...
This thing between us.. This thing we killed,
"Love" I guess... It really was Inevitable...

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I walked away, far away,
From the pain, the hurt and abuse,
I knew you didn't realize,
What you were doing...
But I had to save what was left of me,
The Real me, remains of what survived,
Had to walk over all my hope, care, trust,
And the sharp pieces of my broken love,
But I won't stop, I can still walk,
Holding your only gift to me,
The memories I still kept,
Of us, Of you, Of your smile,
And I think this will last a very long while....

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Nothing is real anymore...
Nothing feels real...
I don't fit in..
Not with these hurters and sinners...
At the least, that's what I thought...
Not till I realized what I was dragging...
Carrying something I wasn't supposed to..
Slowing me.... Pulling me... Slowly killing me..
Who would have thought..
The biggest sin of all...
Was to love and to care..
Without Expecting... Without conditions..
Alas, to walk among the front...
I had to let go of all..
Had to let go... Off with these heavy burdens..
That's the way I too learned,
Giving smiles is not the way...
Killing smiles is the only way..
To "Survive"..

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A Vision too grand, A Dream too long,
A Goal too far, A hope too strong,
But my legs seem to be bounded,
To something that won't come along,
When I look back, It's all I could see,
Your eyes my love, Is this where I belong?
Do I let go, do I stay, what do I really want?
Pain and Pleasure, Dark but bright, is this really wrong?
Then I heard it, a faint melody from our hearts,
A path next to mine, a music lifelong,
In the end my dear, My Destiny lead to you,
My Sweet "Love Song"....

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Do you think I could really hate you,
Do you think I could hate you more than I loved you,
I was unhappy, I felt like trash of on object,
You made me feel lesser than what I am,
I'm just trying to convince myself I hate you for that, but in truth,
All of what I am suffering now is because of me, and my decisions,
I'm just trying to blame you, my everything,
I just hoped you would know, I can never hate you, but you didn't,
Because if something is real with us,
It's what I said in the beginning,
"I will love you till my last breath, and beyond, I am yours and only yours, even if you are with me or without me"
Hope you understand that,
"Hope"....

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