Huge list of contacts
But no one to call
Wear a smile to camouflage
The homesickness in heart

Silent nights
Until the phone rings
And once you cut the call
Silence again
No one to talk to
Nothing to remind me
That I used to belong somewhere else

Grateful for the roof above my head
And food on my plate
Thankful for this life
Yet, was it a good bargain?
Miles away from home
In search of something meaningful...

And so in lonely nights
I pull the blanket close
Hoping for some warmth to seep in
In this cold, quiet house
In this cold, quiet life

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Today feels like a novel
That I've been reading since long

And now, the last chapter awaits.

I've lived with the protagonist in these pages
Shed tears in their grief
Blushed at the kisses, as if they were real
Felt giddy to the core
Oh how I've lived each word!

But like all stories,
This one is going to end too
With a happily ever after maybe
And it's time to pull myself out

The endings are bittersweet
Like all the good things,
This book is about to come to an end
And it's time to start a new one

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I wish I had known
You were the forbidden fruit of my life
Tempting, gorgeous, flawless
Someone with exaggerated, extravagant lies

You were nothing more than a facade
With a broken heart, I now realise
You were a cursed apple
And I shouldn't have taken a bite

With my life in ruins, I regret
Falling for your lying heart, your false smile
Wish I knew you were a rotten apple core
Hiding in plain sight

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That cleft on your chin
That light stubble
My eyes glide up
Taking in your scent
Pausing a bit,
At those parted lips
Where I want to lose myself.

The sharp nose,
Which I have kissed a million times
Comes into focus next
And like a predator,
Stalking its prey, slowly, I look up
Into those whiskey eyes
Blazing at me, tempting me
To reveal all of me
To pour it all, into you.

I keep staring babe
As the world around me
Dissolves slowly.

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I am scared of
How much I am scared to lose you

Scared of all the what ifs and maybes
Of the unfulfilled desires
Of the dreamy sunsets that I wanted to tread on
Holding your hand.
Or the delicate sunrises
I wished to sneak upon,
In your arms.
What about the endless conversations
I hoped on having with you
Over tea and lazy kisses:
Some loud, as the waterfalls
Or some in murmurs,
Mere whispers in your ears.

I am scared of losing out on life
Or losing out on making endless memories
I am scared...
Of the broken dreams
The endless hope
And above all,
I am scared of the emptiness
That you'll leave behind.

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The way you treated me
Told me a lot about you
And a lot more about my worth in your life

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This love for you will keep pouring out
Until there is no more left of it
.
.
.
.
.
Until there is no more left of me.

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For once I want to end the distance between us and hug you tight. For once I don't want to be mature and understand that life is made of hardships and responsibilities.

I want to look into your eyes and see the pain of missing me, reflected in them. That this rift that had formed between us, hurt us both, badly.

I want to hold your hands and feel the magic of love seep in through us. Believe that, dreams do come true and happiness is a reality. For once I want to believe that letting go isn't the best option and holding on to your loved one means everything

I want to feel your heartbeat and experience all the pain, hardships and difficulties, vanish in an instant. I want us to travel back in time, and become the old, happier us, once again.

I want to feel alive again babe.

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Maybe I am a difficult person to love,
That's why everyone leaves without even trying...

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Inspite of all the tears
And the earth shattering pain
Hold my hand once more,
And we'll start again...

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