I accept that my words and my views
may not neccesarily be seen as intelligent,
but over time I managed to find
a few people who feel I'm spiritually relevant.
It's just that I happen to be attracted
to a certain type of religious material,
whose words can change you as you engage it
and prepare you for a life that is ethereal.
So in fact it's actually natural
to get inspired when I decide to write or speak.
I wish to share with all my followers
as we all follow the steep path to the mountain peak.
I mean our internal mountain -
the highest point of our personal elevation.
My presence isn't neccesary
but I'm still here to help with all the preparation.

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Sometimes there just ain't no way for anyone
to change the way something (or someone) actually is.
And if that thing happens to be bad for you,
you may just have to admit that "it is what it is."
"But...just how bad is it really?"
is probably what you will incessantly question.
Here, you need to be real careful;
this type of thinking stems from the devil's suggestion.
Most likely you are already aware
that thing only brings you temporary pleasure,
and everytime that thing lures you back in
you take a step away from God - The Hidden Treasure.
Yes, The Hidden Treasure may well be buried
but you know the general direction.
Don't think between that thing and not finding Him
there isn't a definite connection.
"But it only affects me" - you try to reason -
"I don't think it can be that big of a sin."
Every atom has its relationship with God,
including all the molecules in your skin.
Whatever thing is affecting you
or should I say "infecting you?",
is keeping you away from your Lord -
Who you think is rejecting you.
Not true! The thing is,
you need to be free from the grip of that wicked thing.
Well, unless, that is,
you prefer to live like a slave instead of a king.

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Not everyone makes arrangements to be able
to engage in extra prayer or intensive worship.
Some people may even have legitimate reasons,
like school, work or some kind of internship.
I write and share this spiritual hymn
for all those to whom it speaks to -
Americans, Spaniards, Russians,
Indians, Afghans and Greeks too.
Recently I was speaking to a lady named Sophia -
oh, but this exchange took place in my imagination.
She advised me to keep writing gnostic psalms of wisdom
which inspire readers to seek light and elevation.
That's why I'm rhyming about extra prayer -
the intensive kind by which your 'lower I' can rise higher.
Daily communication with the Holy Flame
melts off mental dross with God's blessed alchemical fire.

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Not everyone makes arrangements to be able
to engage in extra prayer or intensive worship.
Some people may even have legitimate reasons,
like school, work or some kind of internship.
I write and share this spiritual hymn
for all those to whom it speaks to -
Americans, Spaniards, Russians,
Indians, Afghans and Greeks too.
Recently I was speaking to a lady named Sophia -
oh, but this exchange took place in my imagination.
She advised me to keep writing gnostic psalms of wisdom
which inspire readers to seek light and elevation.
That's why I'm rhyming about extra prayer -
the intensive kind by which your 'lower I' can rise higher.
Daily communication with the Holy Flame
melts off mental dross with God's blessed alchemical fire.

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Your gross corporeal body
is a product of this environment.
The Creator made it the way it is
so as to bring both into alignment.
But it's not a permanent situation -
it's a temporary arrangement.
With the original, spiritual world
you best remedy your estrangement.
I know, it's a strange thing now isn't it?
Like, why bother coming to this world at all?
Well, not all are here for the same reason
and it's got nothing to do with the so called Fall.
Kuz it was technically more of a slip
but even then that was after the fact.
To manifest was actually the plan
even before the primordial pact.
The fact of the matter is,
you're given a physical form for your mission.
It's in your best interest to choose
to use it to improve your soul's condition.

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Though I haven't been able to make it in this world
I'm still thankful I got the chance to come here.
I know that physical existence is a blessing
but I just happen to feel like I'm done here.
I don't mean done as in I am complete;
I meant I don't want to stay here long.
I am simply here just speaking my truth,
whether you feel like it's right or wrong.
Of course I also know how wrong it is,
plus I still have some reasons to remain here.
For the time being I am still needed;
I have no choice but to breathe through the pain here.
Let me be clear I'm not making the claim
that physical existence is a problem itself.
For everything that I'm writing right now
please understand that I'm only speaking for myself.
As I already implied above
physical existence is something we need.
Before the tree can produce its fruit
it must be planted in the earth as a seed.
It's true that usually more time is required
so I hope when I leave my tree will be deemed sufficient.
I guess if I'm praying for an early release
I should at least make sure with my time I'm being efficient.

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It's not like I never question myself:
"who am I to write about 'Die before you die'?" -
that mystical or spiritual slogan
that sums up many concepts of the gnostic life.
It is an extremely noble goal
and right now it's something I am still striving for.
I don't write as if I'm enlightened
so no angels can say, "what are you lying for?"
I am simply drawn towards its importance
and I know some of my readers are as well.
Sometimes it's precisely by being reminded
that we redirect ourselves away from hell.
The guidance to "Die before you die"
applies to many interrelated stages.
At times my writings will be explicit
or may allude to it on numerous pages.

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If you are dedicated to changing
something you know is stunting your growth,
you may not have tremendous success
simply by swearing a sacred oath.
We both know you have broken those oaths before
though to be fair you did seek the Lord's forgiveness.
Feeling repentant itself is a blessing
but you still have to fix your spiritual sickness.
That's exactly what it is
so you have to be compassionate yet aggressive.
You can't let that sickness spread
but even then the treatment shouldn't get excessive.
In the past whenever you were tempted
you would inevitably regress to your previous state.
Being trapped in that terrible pattern
even made you say "maybe this is my preordained fate."
But wait,
don't forget to give yourself some credit -
you're aware of your bad habit
and how badly you want to dead it.
Awareness means you're not careless
so when you're tempted remember this tip for protection -
ask yourself how you always feel
once you realize you consented to the devil's suggestion.

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My Lord, I know You can see me struggling
and perhaps I have to refine my soul some more,
but I really need a taste of Your grace
because I'm sort of feeling desperate at my core.
Before I finally vanish from this planet
there are a few specific things I wish to do.
It's just that I can't imagine them happening
unless You enable me to do them through You.

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My Lord, I know I'm not yet able to do
the fantastic acts of service that I yearn to do.
I don't find that ability within me
but I think I could do it if I did it through You.
I mean in or with Your Great Name -
but not just by saying "𝘉𝘪𝘴𝘮𝘪’𝘭𝘭𝘢𝘩".
I feel the urge to merge my soul
into Your Supreme Name, 𝘪𝘯 𝘴𝘩𝘢ʾ𝘭𝘭𝘢𝘩.
Like a true sufi I need to annihilate,
then revive and subsist through Your perfect attributes.
Only Your strength and power can empower me -
I can't manage just by putting on some fancy suits.
My Lord, I know You see me struggling
and perhaps I must strive to refine my soul some more,
but I really need a trace of grace
because I am starting to feel desperate at my core.
Before I finally vanish from this planet
there are a few specific things I wish to do.
It's just that I can't imagine them happening
unless You enable me to do them through You.

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