There's no dearth of words in this
Pitiable world could that stop me
From ruining you with my words
Even if you are just a fictitious figment
Of my imagination a daydream or
Fanatsy too good to come true
I'd wait and keep loving you to
Crumble beneath the weight of
Expectations but the warm cushion
Of falling over tripping in hopes
Of finding you keeps me aloof
Off the world and its realities I
Watch my mind wrestle my heart to
Stop jarring over miseries of love
But the heart knows what it wants
The world mustn't run the diction
Of my story filled with roses or its
Thorns I seek you only if I could
Pull you out of the void to fill my
World of vacuum I'd bend heaven
And hell to make it come true to
Make you me an us till time tests
My patience and I lose it all throw
It all off the idea the notion the
Existence of divine love but I have
Loved been loved moved on have
I not but I'd be in need of it till
The days my pulse throbs along I'd
Find you soon in my world or I
Shall wander off into yours to
Untangle the intricately woven
Knots of love.

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Would I remember you and your
Memories the good or the bad
Ones the ones suffocating in
Between the terrible distance
Laid down by the apathy of
Time that ripples down the
Pain in parts slowly capturing
Every orifice and inch of my
Body that writhes hurt but
Engulfs it all in pride that
Shall comeback soon upon
Midnights to haunt me till
My dreams turn blue black
Rugged half asleep with
Slurred trembling speech
But crystal clear vivid tragedy
That won't detach itself from
Me like your scent on my
Body even if it's hazy I know
In my heart it's there like a
Business unfinished on a
Recourse of destroying my
Future and tryst with an ever
Ending happy destiny where I
Sit and sip and gulp down all
The tragedies as the breeze
Carries away the air of unease
I lay off my guard and armour
Put down the arms I kept on
For years ending a war with myself
And the world I'd pick up pens
And papers instead to write
And live upon your doe like eyes
That pierced through mine but
Would you remember me like I
Do or would I be another failed
Conquest of yours in requiem for
True love.

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I'd paint you across the canvas of
This dark night with colours drenched
Off these stars whisper underneath my
Breath cursing the clouds' cacophony
Uproaring for not the universe is ready
Yet to discover your magnanimity the
Ghastly dark skies shall remain empty
Devoid of any beauty but on days I
Remember our shrouded memories
Tempted I set out to erase to strip
The world of its allure and artistry
So I paint you across the night sky
To remember and yearn and mourn
The vacuum of absence in my body
And soul so gaze I across the night
Sky stretched miles over our head
Where I find you beaming like some
Maestro's masterpiece so even if
You tie me up and cut me open as
Every inch of my body writhes in
Pain and it hurts like I've walked
Into the hot iron gates of hell I'd
Still break out into a burst of verses
Of praise for your beauty for I
Loved you and this pain ain't gonna
Stop me from flattering you till
My last breath.

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Would you care enough to caress
The soul untouched that you left
Wandering at the steps of your
Door that shall remain stranded
In the hallways more like gallows
Yearning for the love so deserved.

Would you ever lend a hand call me
Back inside open the doors of your
Home house me in your arms let
Me lay on your lap let me mesmerize
And lose myself in your eyes would you
Let this little hope of mine dashed aside?

Would you let me call you up again
Ever on midnights when the moon
Shines so bright on a dark dark night
Wrapping me in its lonesome silence
Let me fill this void up by your voice
Till its early morning.

Would you open the gates back for me
Fill my heart to its brim again with love
Let me tell you again on days and nights
What it means when you're mine let me
Hold you close to me again for one
Moment that feels like an eternity
Lay me off slowly smile for me as you
Leave me.

Would you let me have this last moment
With you not end with misery bear with
Me if I tell this for eons how beautiful
You're to me but let me capture this
Night last of you and me then you may
Stomp my heart and walk away like it
Was never meant to be.

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If I sit by my table lay open a book
The words reek your name and I
In the frames across the room
See you.

If I sit by the ocean the gentle breeze
Sways aside my hair as if you ran
Your hands over my head like the
Good old days.

If I sit by the flowerbed hopelessly
Broken filled with my thoughts so
Jumbled but the garden's scent is
Just like yours that brings me back
To you.

Everywhere I go every person I come
Across there's a piece of you in everything
Like of a puzzle interspersed in my
Life all around I walk collecting these
In hope someday I'd build another
You.

The pictures, the scent and the touch
Feels like you put your palm over my
Chest and told me to let go....let go
Your memories for you're nothing more
Than an oasis of illusion in the desert
Of my life drenched in sandstorms
Hellish hot and chilly cold the extremes
My life that oscillates upon.

But this too shall pass with my soul
Heaven or hell I'd find you there one
Day someday or I shall forever twist
And turn even in the grave.

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Would you let me run my hands
Through your soul take a piece of
You back for me a souvenir if you
May let me please like a polaroid
On late Sunday evening last day
Before I reckon the wrath of this
Week which I shall hold onto till
Tis Sunday again until then I stare
Into the empty smiles but it's so
Unfair the man same as me in
These smiles everytime I pass by
But I rue every night over my
Lonesome evenings till tis Sunday
Again when I see you over the
Fountain side while parting sun
Paints the sky crimson red I see
You and only you like some painted
Piece of mastery the voices faded
A long back it feels as if it's just
You and me in the garden of green
I need this Yes! I do so bad a piece
Of souvenir let me carry this time
Not an empty polaroid of you and
Me but a piece of you that I shall
Cherish until I see you.

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Would you mind if I call you mine
In my heart in my mind but not
Never in words though I've waited
Long enough for these stars to
Align this very moment this very
Night still I'd let this night pass by
Like others that we spent side by
But these words never made sense
Neither could you catch my eyes
Or the trembling breaths palpating
Beats but I kept walking by holding
Onto my words keeping shrouded
Under the shades of cloud like on
A late monsoon night my thoughts
Who do I go to who do I speak to
Or I shall forever keep my silence
Would you not know ever what I
Had meant to say that fateful night
Under the bright night sky or I'd
Speak to myself on these pages
Like I've done as months have gone
By.

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I knew I couldn't stay a bit longer if
I may have I'd not have left anytime
Sooner forever enchanted enamoured
By the eyes of yours those two mystique
Enchantress a truth or simply a rumour
But I damned forever my soul locked my
Unpleasant looking sickly soon to pass
Out eyes what magic you wielded shall
Never come to know this world of I lived
Loved laughed again though.

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All reasons abstractions plans halt
Don't matter when you're gone but
Haven't I learnt my lesson that you
Shouldn't pin your hopes on tonight
When you know there's gonna be a
Sun tomorrow burning your eyes I'd
Move on forget and eviscerate you
From the worldly existence of mine
But just like the blinding dark nights
You'd be back won't you to hunt me
Down over the life that we had what's
Life but a bunch of haves and have nots
Some battles you lose for the wars to
Be won I lost you this day but months
Back the night wreaks your name and
My sheets still smell the same love's like
A wounded soldier battling reclaimation
Of his love I wither quilt and writhe over
Happy faces on my screens I shall envy
Happiness from now on and embrace
The miseries for they last longer that
Seems like a forever but at what cost
If I may ponder my urge to smile that
Ceased to exist like the last leaf of
Autumn welcoming the cold waves of
Winter loneliness that shall transpire
Into summer's warmth of nothingness.

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Empty void of sadness fills my lonely
Nights thoughts of you trespass the
Peaceful sleep of mine on nights I
Stay up sleep on days my life's topsy
Turvy turned inane.

Would I not snatch you out of my
Memories livid am I not of the
Dissuading spaces between you
And me even if I kept trying it's
That you could never be a part
Of me.

The roads to you arched twisted
Uneven how do I reach so far if
You had shown me the ways we
Wouldn't be this far is it too late
To blame the unscrupulous ways of
My fate.

I run out words but not the grief
I run out of tears but not the memories
I'd run out of my life but would I
Forget a tinge of you and me my
Pale lifeless thoughts shall exhume
What wasn't there in our destiny.

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