Make Out Meditation

Her breaths of pleasure fell on the sides
of my neck, she waywardly turned and
the breath, warm as red, brushed my nape,
I shockwaved my body into existence.

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Sometimes the internet over powers,
and the white light becomes addiction,
the senses are overcome by scrolling
endlessly, seeing faces of unknown people,
living unknown lives, in unknown places
thinking "what am I doing?", doesn't help.

Sometimes, I'd be reading something on Kindle,
eyes open to serve the mind
busy in taking pleasure
in sentences too good to be read once
"Her pain was unadulterated energy,
a ghost that pulled her and the person
sitting next to her together",

Sometimes, it's the knowledge that keeps wonder
Who am I? What am I doing? Why am I doing that?
Reading Ashtavakra Gita, Yoga Vashistha,
being baffled by how such practical knowledge
is missed by the youth despite being accessible.

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Everything,
I close my eyes, take my sahaj mantra
as a faint feeling from the heart
अचाह, अप्रयतन, अकिंचन
I do nothing, I want nothing, I am nothing,
mind wanders around, thoughts come
from nowhere, it doesn't matter
अचाह, अप्रयतन, अकिंचन,
sahaj mantra,
and mind becomes witness to one's thoughts,
feelings, sounds, botheration, desires,
actions, consequences,
"Am I really doing anything at all?"
"everything is just happening"
समाधि |

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You know no weekday or weekend,
relaxation comes in intervals as busy
comes in work time, when you want to contribute,
when giving spurts out of you
and 'I' takes a little back seat,
when no harsh words come out as a rule,
and no words, no matter how harsh
are unprecedented
when you know you'll be taken care of
no matter what gets thrown at you,
Mondays are then people who you love
for no reason

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I'd like you to do something different
when there's a weight on yout heart
burden in the night, like a woodpecker
constantly knocking at your window
even in flight, when a loved one has left
or people changed, when there're problems
that mind their own way,
as if they were torrential rains,
when it gets really tough, failures
come like cars on a busy highway
fog veils, "what do I do?" seems
like asking a question to a rock,
where fragments of hope arise
in desperate prayers, from the memories of
having overcome many hurdles before,
close your eyes, relax, surrender.

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ਜਿਸਮ ਦੀ ਗੱਲ ਨਹੀਂ ਆ,
ਗੱਲ ਤਾਂ ਪਿਆਰ ਦੀ ਹਨ,
ਜਿਨੂੰ ਅੱਖਾਂ ਤੋਂ ਫੁਰਸਤ ਨਾ ਹੋਵੇ
ਜੇਦੀ ਵਚਨਬੱਧਤਾ ਨੀਵ ਹੋਵੇ
ਜੋ ਚੁੱਠ ਤੇ ਸੱਚ ਤੋਂ ਪਰੇ ਹੋਵੇ
ਫੇਰ ਵੀ ਕਦੇ ਕਦੇ ਸ਼ਰਾਰਤਾਂ ਕਰਕੇ
ਬਿਨਾਂ ਕਾਰਨ ਖੁਸ਼ੀਆਂ ਮਨਾਵੇ
ਤਾਂ ਉਨ੍ਹਾਂਨੂੰ ਸਾਂਝਾ ਕਰੈਂ

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To trust without conditions
situations, circumstances,
not take someone's actions
as a proof of how they are,
mistakes happen, sometimes
mind goes under a veil of ignorance
only visible in retrospect.

Love taught me that it is
greater than truth, for most lies
belie the love that originated them,
in the war of love and truth,
love always wins, lies are told
because there's fear to lose.

Continued...

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"You've grown so much"
"It's been such a long time!"
"You've pepper hair and wrinkles now!"

Slithering through the insidious time
cutting inch by inch, the mirror
failed to show a sigh of change
and you get to hear it from people
you haven't met in a long time
chest crushing hugging aunties
old friends, old loves, others

and you go home and watch the mirror
more than yourself in it,
naughty anger in the eyes for it
"why didn't you keep me informed?",
the the mirror replied
"you're still the same, inside, never changed
never will, what was there to tell, da?"

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The 🐍 Story

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First, give up trying
it's going to do no good
writers do not know
where ideas come from

Second, when something doesn't come
wait, just wait, like on a bus stop,
railway platform, for your love to come back
wait like there's always going to be tomorrow
with a blank slate attention
on your pen or on your cursor

Third, give up even giving up and waiting
go read other people, read
about mountains, people, democracy,
love, letters, things you might
not really read otherwise,
forget about writing.

Fourth, come back, wait again
see magic happen, and even if
there's nothing coming,
words are constipated, don't worry
write all the words that you can think of
down, and play with them, jigsaw puzzle.

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