Every now and then,
I lay in bed and ask myself a redundant question.
I ask myself why you aren't here.
I know why you aren't.
And yet,
every now and then,
I ask it.
I ask to make myself feel a certain kind of pain
that I think I should be feeling.
But because I know the answer,
it never really works.
And yet,
I ask it,
every now and then.
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